5/2/12
Sometimes it's refreshing to just look up at the sky.
I had forgotten how relaxing it could be. It gives a feeling of peacefulness.
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I don't know what's wrong with me. I went to the park since the weather was nice despite being cloudy so I could think, but I couldn't think. My body is blocking out everything that I need to think about as if it's a virus. It's like my body is forcing me to forget about all the pain and hurt. But that isn't what I want. I want to be able to confront my feelings. To accept them and to grow with them. The way I am now I can't do that. I'm broken. I'm like a robot and I'm not happy.
How can I go back to normal? I can't think. My body still feels sick like it's getting stressed out. I don't know what to do. I don't want to feel like this anymore. I just want to go back to being normal.